Take The First Step

Last summer, I had the opportunity to go ziplining with my family. I’ve always been terrified of heights, but ziplining is something I’ve always told myself I would do if given the opportunity. I was so excited to go ziplining, until I saw the stairs I had to climb to get to that line. Suddenly it occurred to me that I would have to get off the ground to glide through the air. Once I was at the top, I could barely breathe, and I could feel my legs going numb. I was trapped in fear. One by one my family members zipped through the air to the other side, and I was the last one. It was just me and the guide. I stepped on to the box very shakily. When I finally stepped off the ledge, I wasn’t looking at the ground anymore. The hardest part of ziplining was just taking that first step. I find that to be very relatable regarding a situation I’m currently having, and I’m sure you relate to it too.

I’m currently finishing my last year at community college, after this it’s my decision where I want my life to go. I get to decide what happens. I’m scared out of my mind! Do I move, do I stay, do I continue school, do I need to pursue a different path? My entire life I’ve been told what’s next. After one grade came the next. This is the first time I have the ability to tell the world what’s next, and I’m terrified. Every time I think I’ve made a decision, I haven’t. I have options, ideas, and dreams that I have to consider within this next big journey. Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I make the “wrong” choice. The issue with this thought is the illusion that I have the power to ruin the plan that God has set for me.

“He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 1:6

Who am I to believe that I have the power to ruin God’s plan for me. Once He has planted that seed in you, He will carry it through. Your decisions do not outrank God’s power. I’m not saying our decisions don’t have consequences, but I think it’s really important to understand that God’s plan will prevail through your uncertainty.

I’m absolutely terrified of moving away from home, but I’m even more terrified that I will stay here in comfort. This is the same way I felt before I took the first step ziplining. I was terrified to take that step, but I was even more terrified that I wouldn’t. It’s okay to be scared of new things, but it’s not okay to let the fear take away your opportunity to a new thing. This is the next step for us. I refuse to let the fear of uncertainty keep me in the same place I’ve always been. The hardest part is to take the first step, but it’s necessary to fly.

Published by emilylynae

My blog is about my journey with finding myself and Jesus through seven years of battling self harm!

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